Wednesday, April 7, 2010

Im Running A Marathon.

There.

I said it.

I haven't blogged about it yet.

I've told 'my people,' and talked about it probably a lot to the inner circle. Sorry if you're tired of hearing about it... I'm not growing new human life, or discovering the cure for cancer in my awe inspiring career, so I don't have much else to talk about.

There's been this little voice of doubt in my head since I committed. Maybe its bigger than little. Maybe its more of a screaming voice.

I didn't know if I could do it.

But I know it now.

I can do this.

I have a posse. Or they have me. We have each other.

They are crazy, and inspiring, and way more motivated than I would ever be alone. I've heard the expression 'iron sharpens iron...' but in my case, it feels more like they are the iron and I am the play dough.

Who would have ever thought play dough could be sharpened?

Not me.

But I am becoming the sharpest play dough I've ever seen. Ha.

26 miles is a lot of miles. Oh, and then there's that little ".2" on the end, just to make sure you're real good and dead.

So far, the furthest I've run is 16 miles. Thats ten short of what I need to be able to do in just six little weeks. But I can feel my body changing. I can feel it getting easier. I can feel my dreams getting bigger, and the finish line, or a whole new start line, is getting closer.

I'm not the fastest, or the strongest, or anything motivational like that. I'm not interested in those things for now, really. I don't know that I ever will be.

But I can honestly say that right now, I am at my personal best.

Its a psychological thing, I think. It makes me feel like a more organized, capable, intelligent person. It makes me feel like anything is possible if I want it to be, and that maybe the best is yet to come. I have now proven to my biggest critic- myself- that I can get up early 3 or 4 mornings a week, in the rain, in the dark... sometimes in the rainy dark... and do whatever is required for me to be able to put an X on my training schedule for the day. And not come home till its done. Its a sense of daily accomplishment that gives a whole new meaning to my life.

It hasn't been easy. Between the three of us, there have been sprains, swelling, blistering, chaffing, bleeding, tears. There are lots of mornings when we don't feel like doing it. But these girls are committed. And they've drug me into it... and made me believe it.

So I'm running a marathon. With my girls, and my little brother on his 21st birthday.

And now I know I can do it. So I'm not afraid to blog it.

And if anyone feels compelled to vacation in lovely San Diego on or around June 6th... feel free to meet us (Oh, and about 40 thousand other people) for a party at the finish line.

xo

7 comments:

Rachel said...

You are amazing!! GO BETH!!!!

Erin said...

You are so awesome! You are such an inspiration. I hope you know that! I know you'll do it and you'll do awesome. I'm glad you blogged about this. It's good to let people know. I can't wait to hear all about it!

Elissa Parrish said...

literally tears streaming down my face...

Anonymous said...

You can do it!

Beatrice Blount said...

SO proud of you. You will be AH-MAZING!!!

Hammie Fam said...

As the Academy brats say... "hooo rah!!" I am so proud! You're a rockstar!

bethanyann said...

AWWWWWW Beth! You are the bestest, sharpest, hilarious-est iron woman ever in the whole world. I'm so proud of you. I really am. I'm also proud that you're realizing what a force you are. Even just a little bit. *hugs* lets be friends.